The more things Change.....

It seems that no matter what I am destined to be spit upon....how is it that some people will treat the ones they say they love the most the worst? How is it that it seems no matter how hard I try no one gives me the benefit of the doubt? What is it about me that makes some people think that they can dump on me and its ok? I used to think it was me, then I thought it was them and now I realize it is me. As much as I tell myself its them, it has to be me because I am the one who allows it. Even though that sounds absolutely ridiculous, but I do. I mean seriously I don't want those I love to treat me like shit, but it just seems to happen and I seem powerless to stop it. If I am on the phone with one of these people and they start yelling at me, I try to say, "Do not talk to me like that" in a firm tone, but politely, they just keep yelling. So I hang up. I do not know what else to do. Well you can imagine how they must feel! How dare she! So of course either they keep calling back or turn the phone off and ignore me, punish me! You would think that I am a 10 year old. Fine freaking punish me, you think I care? Nope, it actually makes me happy, because I have stopped the pain that all the yelling and name calling was causing me.